【轉貼文章】MJJCN - 珍妮•傑克遜：醫生殺了我哥哥 [2009年12月4日更新]

寫於：2009年11月18日
更新：2009年12月4日

網上粉絲轉載了MJJCN的文章連結，是Janet Jackson的訪問。今早看了，心又開始痛，雙眼又開始發紅。我的天，我們的王，非常的掛念你！願你在天邊享受和平生活，歌唱你的美麗樂曲，只要你快樂。

Janet Jackson也不是普通人，除了演藝事業同樣出色之外，她最重要的身份就是Michael Jackson的妹妹。MJ疼愛這個妹妹，人所共知。生於演藝世家，兒時開始便過着不平凡的生活，他倆從小建立的兄妹情，非一般人能明白。MJ的離去，作為粉絲的我們都心痛如此，更何況是他的親人。因為MJ的死訊，收到各界慰問。猶記得那天Janet Jackson穿著整套白色衣裝，公開回應時所說了的兩句說話，是依然浮在腦海。她強忍着淚水的說︰「To you, Michael is an icon. To us, he is family.」那種無奈要接受離去的傷痛，是悲痛，又令人感動。我是多麼的想衝上前抱着她。

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我將Janet Jackson的訪問中文翻譯及英文本都轉貼過來。




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資料來源 ︰MJJCN 及 ABC News Entertainment


原文字體 ︰簡體
翻譯          ︰小麥
編輯          ︰畑鹿驚
日期          ︰2009年11月18日

2009年11月17日 - 在邁克爾•傑克遜（Michael Jackson）去世5個多月後，妹妹珍妮•傑克遜（Janet Jackson）首度開口指責莫里醫生，「這個醫生應該被永久禁止行醫！」

「他是那個親手給邁克爾注射的人，」珍妮對ABC電視台記者羅賓•羅伯茨說道。「他應該爲此負責。」

邁克爾•傑克遜的私人醫生，莫裏現在依舊是本次流行樂之王之死，過失殺人案件的調查重點對象。莫裏已經承認給傑克遜注射了強效麻醉劑異丙酚，但是否認給他注射過任何能夠致死的藥物。

珍妮•傑克遜，MJ死後一直保持著沈默，對于自己心愛的哥哥邁克爾之死三緘其口從沒對媒體透露過自己的想法，但是就在本周三，11月18日，她將開口說出真相。

「這是非常難捱的一年」她說道，「已經發生的這一切，真的難以置信，無法接受。 我沒有一天不在想念邁克爾。」

珍妮回憶了6月25日那天在她得知邁克爾•傑克遜猝死前發生的一些事情，和之後如晴天霹靂一樣的打擊。

「當時我在紐約的家中。是我助手接的電話『你哥哥已經被送到醫院了。現在CNN正在直播。』」珍妮對羅伯茨說，「我打電話通知了所有人。不是占線就是沒人接聽。我聯系了媽媽，提托，我的侄子奧斯丁（Austin）和姐姐拉托亞（La Toya）。」

「我告訴他們到了醫院就給我電話。但是沒人給我回電話，所以我又打給他們，這樣我才知道邁克爾已經不在了……我不能相信這一切。」

珍妮說她和全家人都震驚了，無法接受這是真的。

「這就像是在做夢，不真實」珍妮說，「現在我還是不能相信他已經離開了。但是你必須接受這個事實，雖然很痛苦。生活還要繼續，我明白我必須要面對它。」

洛杉磯斯台普斯中心的舉行的邁克爾•傑克遜追思會上，沈浸在到場的所有愛著邁克爾的人所凝造的氣氛中，珍妮才終于能夠面對邁克爾已經離開的事實。

「邁克爾最喜歡的歌是《微笑》（Smile），在追思會上，傑梅恩（Jermaine）唱的很美，很美，這也是他最喜歡的歌……那個時候我意識到有種一切都結束的感覺，就在那個時候，」珍妮說著，傷感起來。

與邁克爾一起長大

珍妮出道以來賣出了1億張唱片，共獲得過5次格萊美大獎，是傑克遜家族9個孩子中最小的一個。在兄弟姐妹中，她表示和邁克爾是最親近的。

「我和邁克爾非常親密，」珍妮說，「我們有很多相似的地方，他喜歡小孩子，我那時候就還是個孩子，我們經常在一起玩，一玩就是一整天。」

珍妮還回憶了他們小時候放學後如何玩耍，在位于加州恩西諾的家族別墅中一起餵食小動物。

「我們把所有的小動物都餵飽，照顧幼崽。所有的動物—長頸鹿，羊駝，綿羊，鹿，還有未滿周歲的小鹿。各種各樣的動物，各種鳥類，我記得那時候我一放學回家就帶回來很多幹草就像是要去牧場一樣。」珍妮說著。

隨後，珍妮把一些從小動物身上得到的靈感也融入了自己的音樂錄影帶中---這是她年少時的紀念。

生活在傑克遜五兄弟的光環之下，他們成爲美國最出名的家庭表演組合，當輪到珍妮選擇自己事業道路的時候，喬•傑克遜又成了引路者。

珍妮曾經夢想著上大學學習商業法律，但是由于父親的緣故她最終還是走上了演藝道路。

「我父親說‘我認爲你會比一個演員賺更多的錢……’確實是這樣」，珍妮說道，「很明顯，他看出了什麽，但是我真的要去那麽做麽？我需要好好考慮一下。」

喬•傑克遜，作爲家族的長者和這些孩子們成功背後的主要推動者，一直以來被邁克爾和其他孩子們形容成一個施虐逼迫孩子們上台演出的父親。

在今年7月份在Chris Connelly的訪談節目中，喬•傑克遜表示他的孩子們在舞台上表演，就想像正常生活一樣，並且否認自己曾經打過邁克爾，但是他承認那是一種舞台上的教育方式。喬•傑克遜說並不在意邁克爾後來對自己的那些評價。

「我那時候年紀還非常小，記不清到底多大，應該是沒到9歲，我記得當我叫他爸爸的時候，他回答『不』應該叫我約瑟夫，對你來說我就是約瑟夫’打那以後我就沒有再叫過他爸爸。」珍妮對羅伯茨說道。 我們叫凱瑟琳爲媽媽——每個孩子都叫她媽媽。我不知道這是爲什麽，也從未問過，隨他去吧，約瑟夫。」

「我非常渴望能夠過生日或者聖誕節……但是我的第一個生日派對是23歲那年。在那之前我從未過過一次生日，」珍妮說，「你知道那種感覺就像是你失去了什麽東西，但是那時候你又必須跟自己說——你錯過了你從未得到的東西再也補不回來了，你理解麽？——我成長得很快。」

珍妮最後一次見邁克爾是在她43歲生日的前兩天。

「我們互相開玩笑，我在他面前裝傻做著動作，邁克爾就坐在我跟前，」珍妮說，「當時我們笑的聲音很大，我故意在那裏做滑稽的動作給他看，而邁克爾就坐在那裏，就那麽開心得笑著。」


Speaking out five months after Michael Jackson's death, Janet Jackson placed blame on Dr. Conrad Murray, saying the doctor should no longer be allowed to practice medicine.

"He was the one that was administering," she told ABC's Robin Roberts. "I think he is responsible."

Michael Jackson's personal physician, Dr. Conrad Murray, remains the focus of a manslaughter investigation into the pop star's death. Murray has admitted to administering the anesthetic propofol, but has denied giving Michael anything that should have killed him.

Jackson, who has walled herself in silence, fiercely guarding her private thoughts about the death of her beloved brother, Michael, opened up to Roberts in an exclusive interview that will air, Wednesday, Nov. 18 at 10 p.m. ET.

"It's been a tough year," she said. "You have your days where it's just really -- it's hard to believe. And a day doesn't go by that I don't think about him."

Jackson recounted the details of the morning of June 25, before she learned that Michael had collapsed, and her world turned upside down.

"I was at my house in New York. You know, another day. Another morning. And I get a call ... [my assistant] said, 'Your brother's been taken to the hospital. It's on CNN right now,'" she told Roberts. "I called everyone's. There's a line busy or -- someone wasn't picking up. I spoke to mother. I spoke to Tito. I spoke to my nephew Austin. I spoke to my sister La Toya."

"I told them to call me when they got to the hospital. And I remember thinking nobody's calling me back, so I tried calling again, and that's how I found out that he was no longer ... I couldn't believe it," she said.

Jackson said the she and the entire family were in a state of disbelief.

"It just didn't ring true to me. It felt like a dream," she said. "It's still so difficult for me to believe. It's, you know, you have to accept what is. But it's hard. You have to move on with your life. You have to accept what is and I understand that."

For Jackson, Michael's memorial service at the Staples Center in Los Angeles, where the late King of Pop was surrounded by love ones, helped her come to terms with her brother's death.

"My brother's favorite song is 'Smile.' And I thought Jermaine sang it beautifully, beautifully. And that's his favorite song as well. ...There being some sort of a closure, I suppose, at that time," she said, getting emotional.

Growing Up Jackson

Janet, who has sold 100 million records and became a five-time Grammy award-winning artist, was the youngest of nine children in the brood. Growing up, she said that she was always closest to Michael.

"We were incredibly close," she said, "A lot of similarities, his love for children and me being a baby. …We would practically do everything together from morning to night every day. Everyday."

She recalled how the two would play after school, feeding the animals together at the family's Hayvenhurst compound in Encino, Calif.

"We'd feed all the animals, took care of the babies. All the animals -- giraffes, mouflon sheep, deer, they had fawned. All kinds of animals, all kinds of birds. And I remember I would come home from school with the hay like I'm going to a ranch," she said.

In later years, she famously wore the key to the animal cages in all her music videos -- a memento from her youth.

But Jackson does not look back on all of her childhood memories as fondly.

Living in the shadow of the Jackson 5, then the most famous family act in America, her father Joe Jackson took the reins when it came to her career.

Jackson, who once had dreams of going to college to study business law and pursuing an acting career, said her father changed her career path.

"My father said, 'I think you'll make more money singing than as an actress... And that was it," she said. "Obviously, he saw something. And it's sad that it takes away your childhood. If I had to do it all over again, would I go about it the same way? I would really have to think about that."

Joe Jackson, the patriarch and the driving force behind his children's success, has been accused by Michael and others of being an abusive stage father. When asked by Roberts if her father was "abusive" or "old school," she said: "You have to keep in mind that I'm the baby...I think it's old school. And that may extrapolate into -- a -- being a little abusive. Do you understand what I'm saying?"

In a July 2009 interview with Chris Connelly, Joe Jackson addressed accusations that his children sacrificed a normal childhood for life on the stage. Joe Jackson denied allegations of beating Michael, but admitted to spanking as a form of physical discipline. He said he did not regret any part of Michael's upbringing.

"I was very young, very young. I can't remember the exact age, but very young, younger than ten, younger than nine. ...I remember when I had called him daddy, and he said, 'No, you call me Joseph, I'm Joseph to you.' Never said it again," she told Roberts. "...We called mother -- everybody called mother, mother. So I don't know, I don't know why. And I've never asked. I've never questioned it. It is what it is, and I just let it go. Joseph."

"I would love to have experienced what it would be like to celebrate Christmas and birthdays. ...I had my first birthday party when I was 23 years old. And I'd never celebrated my birthday before then," she said. "You kind of feel like you missed something. But then again, you have to, to say to yourself, it's like a catch-22 -- well, how can you miss what you didn't have? You know? I -- we grew up pretty quickly."

Two days before her 43rd birthday was the last time Jackson saw Michael.

"We had a lot of fun, laughing. ...I was being silly, acting silly. And he was sitting in front of me and just cracking up, laughing at me," she said. "I was being loud. And he thought it was so funny. I was just being stupid, acting silly."

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